Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Why?????

Why did this happen to Tred and Talya?
Why did this happen to us?
Why were we choosen?
Why did God do this to us?
Why is this a part of God's plan?
Why do we have to listen to people say stupid things?
Why am I being tortured?
Why do we have to be left suffering when we are good people?
Why do we have to endure this pain for the rest of our lives?
Why are OUR babies burried?
Why couldn't I have watched them grow?
Why is this considered life?
Why do I have to be the angry one?
Why do I have to be the resentful one?
Why do I have to be the bitter one?
Why do I have to be the sorrowful one?
Why do I have to wake up every morning just hoping to make it through the day?
Why do I have to go to bed at night dreading the next day?
Why do I have to spend so much time crying everyday?
Why are they in heaven and not with us?
Why are we being punished?
Why do I have to worry about having more children?
Why do I have to keep myself busy so I don't go crazy?
Why do people not know what to say or do in regards to this?
Why did this have to happen?
Why do I feel responsible for their deaths?
Why do I have to be the mom that lost 2 babies?
Why do I feel like crying when I see other babies?
Why does everyone say I have 3 health children as if my 2 babies didn't matter?
Why does everyone have to worry about me?
Why do I have to celebrate birthdays at the cemetary?
Why do I have to clean headstones and not rooms?
Why did I come home from the hospital with boxes and not my babies?
Why does my heart hurt so bad?
Why was Tred taken at 21 weeks?
Why was Talya taken at 38 weeks?
Why do I feel alone?

3 comments:

LeaAnna said...

You are not alone, honey. And we worry because we love you! Why do you feel all those things? Well, because sometimes when life gives you lemons, it forgets to give you sugar & water. So instead of making lemonade, you're just stuck with sour lemons. Everything you are feeling is perfectly normal...we'd be more concerned if you weren't sad...and you WILL get through this. It won't always be as hard as it is right now...that I am sure of! (((hugs)))

Zan said...

I wish I could answer all of your questions. I ask all the time- Why did this happen to Angie and her family? How could this happen? How can I respond? I dearly care and want you to know that.

Ms Pink said...

I don't think there are any answers that would make anything better. Losing a child, losing 2 children, there really are no answers. I'm here for you though, so please don't feel alone. You can call me ANY TIME...