I ended up going to the dr. and they had to up my meds. I hate that I need to depend on medication to feel happy. I feel even worse that my poor kids have to deal with me. I love all my kids so much and miss them when I don't see them. I got a new job and have been sad at the fact that I am not able to be home when they get home. I miss tht time I have with them before they have their sports. I miss everything. I had to leave work yesterday becuase I was sick and I am sick again today and have not stopped crying. I hate being alone here at home and hate that my little guy is going to day care, I just hate it. I miss them when they are at school, I miss them always. I wish I had more friends, I wish I could spend more time with my husband. I just am so sad.