Saturday, October 25, 2008

Is their a word or set of words that make you stop in your tracks?

Their is for me. It's 2 words and those that know me, know those words. Every time I hear them or see them written, I get flushed, sick feeling in my stomach and just plain pissed. Another thing I have to deal with I guess.

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

October 15th is Pregnancy Loss Remembrance Day

On October 15, at 7:00 pm in all time zones, families around the United States will light candles in memory all of the precious babies that have been lost during pregnancy or in infancy. Too many families grieve in silence, sometimes never coming to terms with their loss.

If you or someone you know has suffered a miscarriage, stillbirth or infant loss due to SIDS, prematurity or other cause, we hope you will join us in this national tribute to create awareness of these tragic infant deaths and provide support to those that are suffering.

Sunday, October 12, 2008

October 13, 2008

This was my due date with Tred. I'm so sad he's gone. Tred we Love you and Miss you. Please keep watching over us.

Friday, October 10, 2008

Bittersweet feeling

I paid all of my bills from when Tred died. It feels good to have paid them since they were all overdue but it just makes me sad.

Thursday, October 9, 2008

I'm sick of excuses

I am so tired of hearing excuses.

Sunday, October 5, 2008

Rainy Day

I've had this on my mind for a while and now it just seems to be more emotional today. My due date is approaching and I am so anxious and sad. Will anyone remember my due date, no, but I sure will. I am so scared what that day is going to be for me. I have daycare children all day (which is a good thing, so my mind stays occupied) but when they leave how am I going to handle the day. Should I just go to bed, should we do something special for Tred? I don't know. I just know that every time I think of the day, I cry. It just makes me so angry and sad that he isn't alive.

Wednesday, October 1, 2008


Nothing new. Just sitting here thinking about life and what it's all about.