Well today has been a day of realization. I have realized that I really need to start to care about me. As time gets closer, well 2 days, to Tred and Talya's walk I realized that I am not where I want to be. I really wanted to run this year but have failed in my attempt to learn how to run. Yes I do not know how to run. I can run but I know there is a way to do it correctly. I don't know who to breathe correctly when running and quickly want to stop. I want to be able to run the 5k next year so I will be starting a couch to 5k program after the weekend.
The walk/run will be in a new location this year and it pushed my anxiety with the fact that I need to be there early to help set-up. I am not the best driver in the dark and this makes me a bit nervous as the coffee stores are not open at 4am. I think I may purchase one the night before and just heat it up and have a spare while driving. P may actually join me again this Sat. to volunteer. I couldn't ask for a better daughter!!!! When she is this wonderful it makes me cry knowing she will never be able to share theses things with her sister!
B will be able to join in the walk this year as he is now a Freshman and they don't have football games on a Sat. E will have to miss his football game this year. He was feeling so torn as he doesn't want to let his team down but he also doesn't want to miss Tred and Talya's walk. It's a double edge sword for the boys with sports and siblings.
I love you T & T!!!!
Till I have more to say,
Mom of 5 wonderful children