I finally got my tattoo. It hurt but was well worth it. I always wanted rosebuds with the childrens names on the rosebuds and after Tred died, DH said that it would be a wonderful time. SO I DID IT. I love it. He didn't say anything about it so I am not sure what his feelings are. I did get compliments from many people. I now have something to look at in the mirror.
We also got a letter in the mail that Tred's stone has been placed at the cemetary. I called Greg to tell him and he drove their after work and took pictures. It's so bittersweet.
I can only hope for better days. My friends from PLM group and my internet moms have been great. I don't know what I would do without them.