Tuesday, June 8, 2010

I wish some days I never woke up

Today is one of those days. I thought things were supposed to get easier. Nope that is wrong. I don't see any light at the end of any tunnel or being able to come out of a tunnel at all. I have been so unhappy with life and things for a while now and each day that passes it seems to be getting worse. My children are pretty much self sufficient and they really don't need me to much of anything with them or for them for that matter. My marriage, well that's falling apart as well. I don't know. I just don't know what to do anymore.


With Out My Punkin said...


Jill said...

Sending so much love your way! It is so hard. Just know that you are not alone.

Annie said...

It seems we're having the same sort of day! I sent you an email.

Supposed to be... "Mama G"... said...

Big Hugs to you. I know this sounds cliche, but I find my counsellor to be indispensible. She reminds me that things will never get completely better... and that helps me to let go of that pressure and any unrealistic expectations that I have to return to my "old normal".
We are all baby lost mommas, and it SUCKS that we always will be. I find lately that when the grief wave comes... I tend to forget that my husband lost his baby too. He is usually quick to remind me, but we mommas sure can tend to feel alone in the "real world" where no one talks about it, or wants to hear about it because it makes them uncomfortable.
Just remember, there are those of us here in the baby-lost world that are right there with you... you are not alone... say what you feel, get it off your chest. There is no need to bear your cross silently here.