Sunday, November 23, 2008

It's been a long time

Well I've been told I need to do an update since it's been a while. Thanks for the reminder pink lady. Well I am no longer doing daycare becuase of a long story that doesn't need to be hased again. I also had a sort of mental breakdown. Ever since Tred's due date came and went things have been going down hill. I was a complete mess that seconed guessed everything I did. I went to the dr. and was put back on medication, why I went off I have no idea but I obviously can't function without them. I feel like a failure that I can't function in life without the medication but I guess I will have to stay on it as long as it helps me heal.

I really had no idea that Tred's due date would hit so hard. It has been harder now than the first few months of his passing. I am going to counseling which is helping. I am able to talk to the dr. without feeling as though I am burdening her with my problems. I know many people say that when I talk about Tred isn't a burden but it feels like it to me. I don't want to live my life sad that I lost Tred, I want to live happy that I was able to have the time I had with him.

Life is hard, I'm just glad that I have so many wonderful people in my life that are their for me when I need them.

1 comment:

LeaAnna said...

You'll get through this, hon! It really isn't a burden to listen to you talk about Tred. Talking about it is what's going to help your heart heal. A heartache this big is going to take time to overcome and you shouldn't feel ashamed about taking medication to help you get through this. It won't last forever, I promise!