I've had this on my mind for a while and now it just seems to be more emotional today. My due date is approaching and I am so anxious and sad. Will anyone remember my due date, no, but I sure will. I am so scared what that day is going to be for me. I have daycare children all day (which is a good thing, so my mind stays occupied) but when they leave how am I going to handle the day. Should I just go to bed, should we do something special for Tred? I don't know. I just know that every time I think of the day, I cry. It just makes me so angry and sad that he isn't alive.