Sunday, October 5, 2008

Rainy Day

I've had this on my mind for a while and now it just seems to be more emotional today. My due date is approaching and I am so anxious and sad. Will anyone remember my due date, no, but I sure will. I am so scared what that day is going to be for me. I have daycare children all day (which is a good thing, so my mind stays occupied) but when they leave how am I going to handle the day. Should I just go to bed, should we do something special for Tred? I don't know. I just know that every time I think of the day, I cry. It just makes me so angry and sad that he isn't alive.

3 comments:

Tina said...

I think you should do something special for him. I know he's looking down on you and he would love it :-) I don't remember the exact day, was it the 16th? I hope the day goes okay for you, remember we are all thinking of you guys.

Ms Pink said...

I'll always remember because it's my special number...10:13 is the time on the clock whenever I look at it.
I'll be thinking of you and your family. Do something special or fun if you can...but don't put pressure on yourself to deal with it any other way than feels right to you.
Love you hon...big hugs to you.

Loocy said...

Hey! I'm from the Oct. '08 ec, and I just wanted to say that I'll be thinking of you on your due date. I have no advice other than to let you know that someone else out there cares! What you went through was extremely difficult; I hope that you are able to find peace.